50's Style .. A Polka Dotted Sweater :)

Outfit of the Day ..

I teamed up a new buy from Primark , a pink sweater with small black polka dots , for a chic 50's inspired look . Skinny jeans , in a stone washed black shade from H& M's , must have black sunglasses , complete the look . It's for the spring sunshine and little heat :)
Jelly shoes ,in silver white sparkle detail . Flat and comfortable also from Primark . A nice pink flower in my hair has completed the 50's glamour look .. shame it can't be seen in the picture !!

Happy Monday , keep smiling ..

Love & Peace

Get The Look ...Heisenberg :)

Happy Mother's Day :)

If you are like me , you would love watching telly . I am a huge fan of American Drama series and I absolutely love "Breaking Bad " .. seriously is there anything better ? He's so badass and Jesse is the best .. What a great team !

I have only just started watching the series and I am glued . I have just finished series 3 in a matter of a week . I'm glad I waited for the whole Five series to END in the USA , before I started watching it here . It's just too exciting to wait almost a year before the new series starts , lol ..

So if your a fan of Breaking Bad ,you would know exactly what this T/Shirt is about .. I absolutely love it .. If you love it too , its available from Primark  now on discount from 8 pounds  to 3 pounds a bargain . My Mother's Day gift from the kids .. they know what I like :)

 Have a great day and keep smiling !!

Love & Peace

Mother's Day All Over The World , Why The Hell Not Here ??

Why or Why does the UK celebrate Mother's Day in March ? Now when the world is celebrating , and all my friends are doing something special for Mother's Day , I will be NOT :((
How sad is this ? No extra special things available or chocolates on discount or nice bouquets of flowers to purchase in the shops , so I can't celebrate , what on earth could I get myself  , not even a card :(
Anyways , my heart still feels like May is originally Mother's Day and I can't help think of my dear MUM as tomorrow almost knocks on the door !!
So I wrote a special poem with thoughts about my Mum . It can apply to every woman who's a Mum , we all have one common goal ..it's our children who we love dearest .

When God created this wonderful world ,
He made the stars,  the sea , the earth .
He was not done until he could ,
create one more thing , which would be overall good !
But what was that blessing ,he had in store ?
It was a mother , to love you and care for you till the end of the earth !
So you would never walk alone ..
A Mother's love ,goes the extra mile
Just to make sure you smile .
She'd work so hard , to make your house your home .
She will teach you , guide you and stay by your side .
she will lend her helping hand ,
till you can stand up tall .
She will pick you up , when you are down ,
She's one loyal friend , who will stick around .
She will always keep her word, she listens well ..
She's one person who never will tell ,
your secrets , your hopes , your sorrows your hell .
She will not poke or pry , but stand quietly by your side
giving you calm in stormy seas .
A Mum can be strong , for someone to lean on ,
I light up as I think of you Mum ,
I have no choice , I wish I had a tape of your voice .
I'm so glad God chose you for me ,
Deep inside I know you still walk with me ,
By my side , you hold my hand and give me strength ,
and hope and love ..
Although you are not here in body and flesh
I feel your presence , everyday in smile and laugh
in my own reflection I see
A face and hand so like you in me !!
My Guardian angel , it's my Mum for me !
Thank you Mum , for everything you did for me ,
I'm sorry if I never said it  before ..
I Love you Mum  and I will Miss you
For evermore ...

Kisses to heaven , for my Mum Joan and a kiss from each of my three children , who she loved so much . We will never forget you . Thank you for being you .

Have an awesome day tomorrow everyone , and even if you're in the UK , Happy Mother's Day .
Rest of the world , your Mum loves you like No One else ever will ... don't forget it !!
Happy Mother's Day :)

Love & Peace

Product Recommendation , Eyeliner :)

Every girl /woman knows how important an eyeliner is ..
We enhance our eyes ,it makes us look sexy and bright eyed . Somehow we don't feel naked without eyeliner .
I am always on the lookout for a good eye pencil that doesn't cost too much , is soft and creamy so I can easily draw the line above and below my eyes , without pulling or stretching the eyelid . I don't want my eyelids to get saggy because everyday I have to stretch the skin to draw a line over my eyes .
This fantastic eyeliner pencil , Intense colour in Jet Black is from MUA , Makeup Academy . It is available from Superdrug and costs only a pound :)
It comes in a range of colours and is super good quality .
I recommend

you try out this beauty product . You will not regret it !!

What I Said To Provoke My Ex To Assault Me Verbally And Physically !!

My blog of a couple of days ago, was the most read blog and had the highest number of views in just two days . I was very surprised that so many people were interested enough to read a blog about domestic abuse . It is a rising situation and more and more women are now coming out and speaking about it . It's not that this never happened to women in the years gone by .. A lot of women suffered domestic abuse but were afraid of speaking out . The men who perpetrate this violence against women force the woman to be quiet by saying you really don't want to go out publicly and air your dirty laundry and want everyone to know your business . They also pretend to be very good and beat you in the confines of your home and never publicly . If you do tell people they get more violently angry and later beat you up again . These are people who don't accept the fact they are women beaters , they make you feel that you are at fault , it was you who are irrational , who speak and say unacceptable things who are nasty and you ask for it . Let me just say No Matter What A Woman Says , A Man Has No Right To Beat A Woman !! Leave the woman and go as far away from her as possible , if you don't agree with her views .
Just to say , how trivial what I said to my ex , that drove him insane and beat me and how justified he felt in doing it .Remember , I was just talking and I said this " I always say I am so proud of myself I never tell lies , I lead a good pure life , I am a messenger of God and I always feel blessed . I have a strong feeling one day I am going to be lucky and win some money on a lottery or a scratch card but I don't think it's going to be now , because I think God won't let me win now , I think with you around here ( my ex ) and you being not a good person you don't deserve any of the money to enjoy and I feel like God thinks you should not get it right now , till you change and accept who you are . You are not sorry for all the suffering you have caused me . God needs you to struggle and repent for your sins before you will get any blessings " .
Now these words of mine Got him so angry and he was shouting "who are you to say such things , YOU are not God " He saw red , and I was pushed around , shoved to the ground physically and verbally abused ..
I was trying to say something good , if he was not violent and abusive to me , and quietly accepted what I said , that would have been a positive thing in God's eyes . Maybe he was accepting of his bad qualities and trying to  change and maybe it would have been a step in the right direction to him getting blessed by God . Pastors , Priests and religious leaders preach all the time , do you think they deserve to get beaten up ? No , people who don't like what they say , don't hang around them and don't attend church and lead the life they want !
If you don't like what someone has said , Walk Away and ask yourself Why has someone said I am not a good person , is there something that I need to change about myself ?
Just yesterday I saw a programme on telly ..it was an old tv show . It tells you about all these self help coaches telling you , to be a better person to try and do your best all the time . They are so wrong because , the first thing you need to do is look at yourself , see your own faults and accept the person you are . If you are in denial about what you really are , you will never move forward and become a better person . So the whole idea is defeated . You can only make progress if you look at yourself and know yourself better , and accept who you are !
My ex and eldest daughter laugh at me and tell me I don't know what I'm talking about that all that I say is not true , I talk rubbish and we never see eye to eye as a result .
Yes I have my views and I believe I am correct , that is why I feel confident enough to blog about my views and spread my message . They obviously don't like what I blog , because they must know subconsciously they are wrong but won't admit it !
Yesterday , I  found a hilarious post and shared it on FB .. it said "My ex is from Down Under , No not Australia from Hell " Obviously none of my friends found it funny or even thought it was vaguely accurate because I only received one" like " from a friend . Yes Hell probably does not even want him back ;)
Hope you enjoyed reading this and you have a good day ahead . Keep smiling .

Love & Peace

Cease Aging ?? Yes it's A Great Phenomena .. Check Out " Age Of Adeline "

Normally it's quite easy to miss alot of the new releases at the picture hall and just catch a few of the big hyped ones . Now I don't know how hyped this one is ? if you've even heard about it , but I've been waiting ages for it to be released ! Now it's not for the only reason Blake Lively is in the starring role , and she's been a favourite of mine since I saw Gossip Girl , the first time !! Who couldn't love Serena Van Der Woodsen ?
The movie is " Age of Adeline " it has an interesting story line . Again not for the only reason that the main character Adeline , after being in a freak car accident at 29 years old in the early 1900's she just stops aging  , and didn't think it was a problem , until her age didn't match her face and her driving licence , and started to go on the run from city to city to avoid questions and curiosity . Now alot of people are also pretty surprised to know my real age , but no nothing freaky involved , just some good genes and probably one day all those years , of just looking so young hits me in the morning, when I look in the mirror and have suddenly aged and look like Jabba the hut :) It can happen ;)
Age of Adeline is a very interesting movie with great costumes and played to perfection by Blake Lively . Although Adeline herself is a character I'm not too fond of , she wasn't very likable yet she seemed to be desired by everyone !! It's a love story and the target audience is women who would have a great ladies day out , to the movies watching this film  . It does particularly make men look dumb , like they are only interested in the woman because of the way she looks . But then we all know men , are a bunch of dumb arses who only look at outer beauty ! You would know what I'm talking about , if you happened to see my message box on FB .. Beautiful Sabrina blah blah ... so boring !! You cannot win me over , praising my beauty ..it has got to be praise over any of my other talents that impresses you lol ... if you think I have more depth than just a pretty face .
This movie directed by Lee Toland Krieger who doesn't have many feature films directed ,to his credit but he has had enormous success with the films he has done . His first feature film The Vicious Kind and his follow up Celeste and Jesse Forever  which both premiered at the Sundance Film festival and received rave reviews by the critics . Not an easy task to please the critics !!
Look out for Harrison Ford in the movie .. the old dogger is still sexy as hell ;)
Enjoy the movie if you do get a chance to see it , at the weekend ..it's a good one !
Keep smiling and have a great day .

Love & Peace

Domestic Abuse , Police Are No Help Sadly :(

So it's Sunday and it's supposed to be a peaceful day but sometimes things are not always as you want them to be ... Not when you have an ex-husband who has forced his way into your house and is forcing himself to  stay there . So he's pushing me around , and my eldest daughter takes his side ..well she and I never always got on , she's difficult she never liked living in Holland , she was bullied in school there ,so she never wanted to attend . Eventually I decided to move to England to make sure the kids had an English education and where I thought the law would be on my side .
What a laugh , when I wanted to call the police today , my ex and daughter took the phone away from me ..so I had to run out of the apartment building and get a friend on the second floor to call the police for me . The Police did nothing much , they told my ex to leave the flat and come back tomorrow to discuss things . He does not live here , why should he come back ?  He wants to see the kids  , but I have always let him .. if he wants , he is free to take the kids !! As far as I'm concerned , he can .. but can he support them ?? He left his job in Holland came here and forced his way into my home . I asked the police , have you asked to see his passport , they tell me "why should we  , we have no need to " So anyone can just come into England and stay forcibly , and try to destroy my life and happiness ! His passport has expired a while back , he has no National Insurance Number to stay here . He has no income here , does not work here , and makes me feel like I have to look after him ! Why do I have to take him in ?? When he has always been abusive physically and verbally , aggressive and violent to me .
My eldest daughter has never shown me any respect .Her father always encouraged her to speak to me like I was not her mother but just a person who has no right to tell her anything . She argues constantly never listens to me tells me to be quiet all the time and has on many occasions hit me .. I am so fed up . She is much taller than me and takes advantage of her strength and height . She often says she is an adult , and yes at 19 she is ..maybe she needs to go stay on her own and take responsibilities . I do not want to look after her any longer . Especially as she never ever finished school , or did any education since she came here to England . Yes she was sixteen when we came here , so it was not compulsory for her to attend school ..but she did nothing and I was too scared of her to force her .
The police are definitely not  supportive of women , any wonder why people hesitate to call them and why domestic abuse victims continue to stay in the same situation and are abused all their life from their aggressive partners . They say he's homeless and has to stay with you , lol .. Ocean does not have anyone else here in the North so I am supposed to continue to put up with her attitude and look after her .. Is this how I and women have to put up with situations . Don't we have a voice and are allowed to have peace in our life ?
I am feeling very defeated and very unhappy . I don't want to live being abused all my life ..
I just wished I had a loving partner and  some piece of mind .
I love staying in England and I know the two younger ones love it here , and the school they attend . But I think I just need a break from responsibilities , bills , jobs etc . It's all getting too much for me ...
So that was my Sunday ! Hope yours was better !
Give a thought for women and love them .. I wish people listened to me and not the man around who is automatically given respect . I never cared too much for Police and I doubt my opinion will change . The male policeman who I spoke too was downright insulting and condescending to me ..Yes I was a crying mess and yes I wanted to talk and explain and he tells me you are arguing ?? Typical man , tells lies about women .. We are not supposed to say anything ! Well like I always say , there is a God above he will have to answer too ,one day . I never argue and I am very respectful , remember I was born in India and if there's one thing we know it's respect , manners and politeness !!
So among everything else that's wrong here Women are still not respected . My ex should have produced his passport to prove who he is , and removed back to his own country especially if he has nothing to prove he is a resident of England . How many more people are going to stay here and bully their ex's without the police doing anything ?  He can easily go out and do crime . Makes this country such a crime hit place . People without money roaming around so he could , shoplift etc .. The police tell me " do you want him not able to see his children ". I said he is welcome to see them . Maybe he should even take responsibility and take them and look after them . If he can't do that , he should not be allowed to stay in this country and bully me and encourage his eldest daughter to bully me as well !
I think I have blogged enough today . The plight of abused women haunts me ..being a victim myself .. Yes he says I tell all lies .. Such a common lie men tell . So why is he hanging around a woman who says regularly ," he's violent to me "? If I was a man and a woman said I was violent and I was not , I would take my kids and go far away from her . It's just women are an easy target to abuse and men get away with doing it .
I am so ashamed to be living here in this century , with bulling men and thoroughly unhappy . Yet they have adverts about stop domestic abuse . How much will I stand to lose speaking up about it ? Probably my home , I would have to go live in a shelter , not be able to see my younger kids my life destroyed . What a world , and then not be believed !

Happy Sunday if your was that .. Stay blessed if you are , and think about every woman who has no support , and does everything on her own and is responsible for everything .Give support and love , don't question them . It's hard enough to come out and speak . Yes I said I had no injuries but he twisted my arm pushed me down on the ground . No bruises to see but I still felt pain , when a six foot three inch man pushes a five foot one woman !! Sad world :(

Love & Peace